Yeah , finally he has book out le . I am Happy and I know that he is very Happy too (: . Things were really going smooth for the both of us and seriously , I am kind of Satisfied but who doesnt want for more ?! The things I wanted most was to patch with him and hope that everything could just go back like the past which belong to the both of us . I couldnt gert myself in bed and so I decided to blog . I doesnt know what I am thinking now and I only know that I am a FUCKING BAD PERSON ! I did alot alot of things which I never think for his feelings and how much hurt I have really gave him , I myself also dontknow . A selfish person like me who he can forgive and seriously I shouldnt ask for more right now . When I know that he used to be very close with a girl the heart of mine ended up breaking and my mind is really blank . I doesnt know what to say about myself expect using SLUT , BITCH and FUCKER to describle myself ! Why must I do those things in the past ! Seriously , I really doesnt know what to say !

I am Sorry because I have done alot alot of things in the past which may hurts you . But now I am tasting the feelings that you tasted before ! I could only say the feelings doesnt taste good . It is FUCKING HURT ! I HATE MYSELF ! THE FUCKING GIRL WHICH IS NOBODY BUT JUST ME !