Nightmares being to arrive . It was just because of yesterday , I went out at such a late night alone myself and all the things was just because I wanted to see him . I just doesntknow why must I go and meet him but the only think I know was if I am nort going to meet him now soon I wouldnt have the chance beacuse daniel is going army soon . I just doesnt know why must it be me ? All I was is just to be Simple Girl and let people know that I am changing and I am no longer the past . I am really changing very very hard ! Today mood wasnt very good just like yesterday . I was so EMO !! All I do today was EAT , SLEEP , COMPUTER and everything just repeat ! When downstair to have a walk and at the same time send Jamie home . After that I went to playground to have a sit . Started to realise I am really very very scared ! Nightmares I start to have . Damn it ! Nights time and I cant gert myself sleep was kind of famished so thanks to my girlfriend for cooking me food . Cant gert myself sleep so I chose to text a close friend of mine . Althought we dint talk much but I am happy enough that he did reply . I doesnt ask for more but I hope that he is doing great , healthy , happy and always good in everything he done . Nightmares do arrive so I would learn to take it even know that everything is going to be very BAD . Thanks my close friend for your everything .

Could you just give me an hug and some care . I just need you more den anyone else now . Can you feel it ? I am crying . .