Sometime fairy tales do come true and I think mine has come true .
Sunday, December 27, 2009
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Many people would always hope to have some fairy tales in life and so do I . Yesterday everything to me was just like a Dream althought too many many people this would be nothing for them but too me everything has a improvement between the both of us . I choose to go down at such late hours to find him was just because I wish to see him and the most important thing was just to have more time with him inorder to have more improvement with him . But somekind of rather the problem is still there . Whenever we meet up we wouldnt speak much but just sitting down there doing things of our own or just stare at each other . Times passesby , I would feel that meeting him is somekind of rather is making him to suffer or even making him uncomfortable . So I decided to ask him to go back home first while I would sit at the bus-stop till morning to take the first bus go home . The problem is nort I doesnt have any money or no people to ride me home but I told him that I wouldnt want anybody to ride me home . He putted money into my bag and walked away and this feeling come . 要你同情我 ， 我令愿去死 ！被自己喜欢同情真不好受 ！Given him back those money and walked off angrily ! Tears just doesnt know why keep dropping and dropping ! Called Girlfriend Sep told her what happened and doesnt know whether I am bad luck or what phone battery flatting soon . Texted with him and told him where am I and what I am going to do and yet he just asked me to choose . I doesnt want all that but just having some good talk with you I would be happy ! I can feel that he is kind of angry with me and yet so does I so I throw my attitude at him ! But ended up , still went back to meet him because sitting alone at the Viod-deck is really scary ! He angry because he care and he is worry about me . I know it and I really can feel it . Sat down dere as per normal but this time round we do talk alittle . Weather is cold downstair and finally I feel tired le . Sat down at a place which is nearby his side and finally I fallen asleep le . Lying back to back on his back and I am Happy because he dint push me away but yet worry that I would fall down to the water pool and so he keep adjusting me or call me whenever I am going to fall . Finally , I can be close with him . Happy was the only word I could really use ! Finally morning le , could finally head down to the bus stop but he is still worry and so he followed me to the bus-stop to wait for bus . Walking in a distance way the both of us and he was kicking and playing on the way to the bus-stop . I finally realise that he is just like the guy who I just met him at the beginging . A kid who loves to play !
Just wanted to tell you that I am Sorry for always making you worry or angry ! finally realise that things would be hard for us to go back but I would never give up perhaps I would continue trying to melt the heart of yours ! Thanks for accompanying me the whole night ! At least I do know that you worry and care because you never leave me alone at such late hour ! Lastly , Thanks and Sorry for your everything ! ILY(:
Counting down Christmas Eve with my Girlfriends& Beloved !
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Spend my Christmas with my Girlfriend and my beloved Daniel ! Although , dint manage to go out with him but den to me I am Happy enough because we gort to meet up and at least I gort to see him after so long . As per normal , I am always that nervous to meet him and each time I meet up with him my mind would just go blank . Girlfriend accompany me to Bukit Panjang too . They waited for me at the Mall while I go to his place downstair to meet him . Passed him the chocolate and riceball that I make on myown ! I could only say Sorry if it doesnt taste nice . After that took bus 963 to Vivo City . Have our dinner and photo taking over there .
Thanks Girl , I enjoyed it alot !
The feeling just you, me and everybody
Monday, December 21, 2009
I find no words to describle how happy am I ! But this feeling is really good because I finally realise nothing is impossible if you are workhard ! No more ONE-SIDED love for ME ! Thanks for telling me how you feel and the answer that I always wanted for so LONG ! Love is nort easy as ABC but I will let my love life to fill with COLOURFUL coloures nort just only BLACK OR WHITE ! Guys , thanks for staying by my side for so LONG ! You guys always let me pour our my unhappiness into your ears , giving me warm huggies whenever I cry and lastly never leave me alone when I needed someone ! Times when I throw my attitiude to you all and yet you guys always would just reply me " Nevermind is okay " . Times when acted like a child you guys who just let me win and whatsoever . This time I would fight hard hard for him ! Loves(:
To my PingYi Girlfriends, Boy-FRIENDS& 2 NORMAL TECHNICAL STUDENTS: Seriously , there is alot of things that I wanted to tell you all . Getting into different school and a different path which have finally arrived to us ! Being classmates or GOODFRIENDS for the past 4 years everything too me is so memoriable ! Thanks for all your laughteryou guys bring to me and I would just like to tell you all I would MISS YOU guys alot and never de LESS , PLEASE MEET UP !! I LY(:
Guys dont worry for me because I scored quite well for my N LEVEL result (:
The heartbreaking day
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Yeah , finally he has book out le . I am Happy and I know that he is very Happy too (: . Things were really going smooth for the both of us and seriously , I am kind of Satisfied but who doesnt want for more ?! The things I wanted most was to patch with him and hope that everything could just go back like the past which belong to the both of us . I couldnt gert myself in bed and so I decided to blog . I doesnt know what I am thinking now and I only know that I am a FUCKING BAD PERSON ! I did alot alot of things which I never think for his feelings and how much hurt I have really gave him , I myself also dontknow . A selfish person like me who he can forgive and seriously I shouldnt ask for more right now . When I know that he used to be very close with a girl the heart of mine ended up breaking and my mind is really blank . I doesnt know what to say about myself expect using SLUT , BITCH and FUCKER to describle myself ! Why must I do those things in the past ! Seriously , I really doesnt know what to say !
I am Sorry because I have done alot alot of things in the past which may hurts you . But now I am tasting the feelings that you tasted before ! I could only say the feelings doesnt taste good . It is FUCKING HURT ! I HATE MYSELF ! THE FUCKING GIRL WHICH IS NOBODY BUT JUST ME !
I am Sorry because I have done alot alot of things in the past which may hurts you . But now I am tasting the feelings that you tasted before ! I could only say the feelings doesnt taste good . It is FUCKING HURT ! I HATE MYSELF ! THE FUCKING GIRL WHICH IS NOBODY BUT JUST ME !
The 7th day Daniel in Camp
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Yawn ~~ Yawn ~~ I havent gert myself in bed till now so I should feel tired but seriously insisted to be tired but I am quite Hyperactive leis . I think because I been busy and anxious of watching me show 恶魔在身边 . This show is very nice if marks would be forgiven I would given 101 ! Beside nice and touching there is no more words that I could describle this show . Edna and Jamie went back to school to buy their new textbook and school uniform so left and me at home . Sep sleep until 9 den she started to do those housework le and so I went to help her out . Change bedsheet and wash her mother's toilet and after that I went to vacum the and Sep will be mopping the floor . My 3 dearest Girlfriend please dont be so HAPPY because you people is going to clean the kitchen as you guys know that the kitchen is the most dirties place and so we shall leave this tough job to the 3 of you and here we girls wish you happy cleaning . Currently , I am resting with Sep on the sofa ! hahas , finally we have done our part ! I am going to rush my show again !
I havent text Daniel and tell him that I never meet up with Anson . Some kind of rather worry the same thing that he may thinks that who ever I want to meet up with is none of his business . Worry that he maybe angry with me ! I just doesnt know why I gort this kind of weird feelings . I am kind of lost and I doesnt know what to post today for him . I know that we wouldnt be able to text for this couples of days and I know I am going to miss him very much ! I just doesnt feel use to it that you dint text with me . I feel unhappy , empty and kind of mood swing . If I have posted something that you doesnt like or you feel annoying den Iam Sorry but this is really how I feel . I know that July is just like a kid which never seen to be growing up . Always pestering you , giving you problem and always asking you question that you doesnt want to answer . I know that I shouldnt do that but I just doesnt know why am I always acting like this . I am afraid that one day you may hate me , dislike me or even ignore me again that is all what I doesnt want ! I am SORRY , really SORRY ! Sometimes I do feel tired after making so much hard work on it and yet worry that you cant feel it but I doesnt want to give up on you as I want to be with you . Staying by yourside , taking care of you if you are ill , standing by yourside whenever you meet something bad , lending you my ears to pour out everything that you are happy or upset and be with you to share every happy moments or things that we do together . I am always crying althought there are time is because of sadness but too me everything is worth it . Yeah ! Finally I reached his messgae le althought is kind of late but to me its always better den nothing . Daniel , you will never know how important your message is meant to me . Heartbroke ! When you say you dont think that you are going to hold my hands again but navie de JULY told you that No matter what I am going to let you hold my hand no matter what . Am I trying to console myself telling myself Daniel is just joking to me . I wanted to tell you , You know my everything and I do hope that I can know your everything be the one who is by yourside . I want to be with you and thats what I know . I want you to text me automatic , I want you to joke with me , I want you to care for me and never the less one day you could tell me that I miss you too . Loves&Misses(:
I havent text Daniel and tell him that I never meet up with Anson . Some kind of rather worry the same thing that he may thinks that who ever I want to meet up with is none of his business . Worry that he maybe angry with me ! I just doesnt know why I gort this kind of weird feelings . I am kind of lost and I doesnt know what to post today for him . I know that we wouldnt be able to text for this couples of days and I know I am going to miss him very much ! I just doesnt feel use to it that you dint text with me . I feel unhappy , empty and kind of mood swing . If I have posted something that you doesnt like or you feel annoying den Iam Sorry but this is really how I feel . I know that July is just like a kid which never seen to be growing up . Always pestering you , giving you problem and always asking you question that you doesnt want to answer . I know that I shouldnt do that but I just doesnt know why am I always acting like this . I am afraid that one day you may hate me , dislike me or even ignore me again that is all what I doesnt want ! I am SORRY , really SORRY ! Sometimes I do feel tired after making so much hard work on it and yet worry that you cant feel it but I doesnt want to give up on you as I want to be with you . Staying by yourside , taking care of you if you are ill , standing by yourside whenever you meet something bad , lending you my ears to pour out everything that you are happy or upset and be with you to share every happy moments or things that we do together . I am always crying althought there are time is because of sadness but too me everything is worth it . Yeah ! Finally I reached his messgae le althought is kind of late but to me its always better den nothing . Daniel , you will never know how important your message is meant to me . Heartbroke ! When you say you dont think that you are going to hold my hands again but navie de JULY told you that No matter what I am going to let you hold my hand no matter what . Am I trying to console myself telling myself Daniel is just joking to me . I wanted to tell you , You know my everything and I do hope that I can know your everything be the one who is by yourside . I want to be with you and thats what I know . I want you to text me automatic , I want you to joke with me , I want you to care for me and never the less one day you could tell me that I miss you too . Loves&Misses(:
The 6th day Daniel in Camp
Here I am posting again as per normal I went bed late again ! So tired ! Tonight would be the last day tonningat Sep's house le luhs . So SAD ! Hmm . . this 1 month I enjoyed alot with my 4 Girlfriend(: and I do hope that they enjoyed it too . Althought going back to our home but we will be meeting up together as per normal like the past we do . So no matter what , please MEETUP !
Been watching show recently and busy sleeping . Tims spending together with my 5 Girlfriends was GOOD althought there are times we have a small tiff but everything is going to be okay . Being friends is hard becoming BESTFRIENDS/SISTER is more hard ! Thanks GOD for letting me to meet you girls . I do have attitude and each time you girls would tolerate me and tellin me " Nvermind is okay " . I wanted to tell you al this " Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense and giving in to me each time and I am really HAPPY to have you Girls with me whenver I am upset , HAPPY or breaking down . " You Girls brought me smile and fun ! Really thanks alot alot . Forgive me whenever I did something wrong okays ? July love my 4 Girlfriends ( Sep , Edna , Jamie and Joey . ) (: Thanks for lettig my granny to stay with us at this period of time , I could only say thanks alotalot .
Today texted with Daniel and everything as per normal . But today was kind of Upset and at the same time I am Happy too . Happy becaue I asked Daniel whether did Daniel miss me and he replied " ZZZZ got la got la ZZZZ just making you happy only . Althought he is just making me happy but too me is which is something I wanted and yearing long time ago yet now is finally say out by him . Upset was because he couldnt text me this couples of days because his phone battery is going to flat soon if continue texting with me he couldnt contact daddy le . Actually I wanted to tell him that Anson , he asked me for patch but I doesnt know how to start and I may worry that he may thinks that is none of his business . But I just wanted to let him to know my everything and I just doesnt want to keep things away from him . I will nort patch with Anon because I want Daniel and nort Anson ! Daniel , I be meeting Anson later but trust me I wouldnt do anything with him is just talking only . So PLEASE BELIEVE ME ! I think I should really talk things clearly with him . I never wanted to destroy things we are having now . I MISS YOU !This couples of days althought you cant text with me but I will still post things about you . Letting you to know my everythings is my job ! So please takecare of yourself inside and never make me worry for you okay ?! Loves&Misses(: New update , I never meet up with Anson le . I will be staying at home watching show ! Some kind of rather I have a weird feeling but yet I just cant find words to describle it . I am worry that Daniel may feel unhappy or what but seriously I do hope everything wouldnt have any changes . So SORRY ! ): I am just too afraid that things between us may turn out in another way and I am worry that Daniel wold ignore me ! Gosh , I am feeling damnLOW ! I choose nort to meet up with Anson because he wasnt free too and he told me whether want to meet him tomorrow anort and I choose nort to because I DOESNT WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEND and I DOESNT WANT DANIEL NORT TO TRUST ME ! But yet my heart is crying nort because of anyone but just you , DANIEL .
Been watching show recently and busy sleeping . Tims spending together with my 5 Girlfriends was GOOD althought there are times we have a small tiff but everything is going to be okay . Being friends is hard becoming BESTFRIENDS/SISTER is more hard ! Thanks GOD for letting me to meet you girls . I do have attitude and each time you girls would tolerate me and tellin me " Nvermind is okay " . I wanted to tell you al this " Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense and giving in to me each time and I am really HAPPY to have you Girls with me whenver I am upset , HAPPY or breaking down . " You Girls brought me smile and fun ! Really thanks alot alot . Forgive me whenever I did something wrong okays ? July love my 4 Girlfriends ( Sep , Edna , Jamie and Joey . ) (: Thanks for lettig my granny to stay with us at this period of time , I could only say thanks alotalot .
Today texted with Daniel and everything as per normal . But today was kind of Upset and at the same time I am Happy too . Happy becaue I asked Daniel whether did Daniel miss me and he replied " ZZZZ got la got la ZZZZ just making you happy only . Althought he is just making me happy but too me is which is something I wanted and yearing long time ago yet now is finally say out by him . Upset was because he couldnt text me this couples of days because his phone battery is going to flat soon if continue texting with me he couldnt contact daddy le . Actually I wanted to tell him that Anson , he asked me for patch but I doesnt know how to start and I may worry that he may thinks that is none of his business . But I just wanted to let him to know my everything and I just doesnt want to keep things away from him . I will nort patch with Anon because I want Daniel and nort Anson ! Daniel , I be meeting Anson later but trust me I wouldnt do anything with him is just talking only . So PLEASE BELIEVE ME ! I think I should really talk things clearly with him . I never wanted to destroy things we are having now . I MISS YOU !This couples of days althought you cant text with me but I will still post things about you . Letting you to know my everythings is my job ! So please takecare of yourself inside and never make me worry for you okay ?! Loves&Misses(: New update , I never meet up with Anson le . I will be staying at home watching show ! Some kind of rather I have a weird feeling but yet I just cant find words to describle it . I am worry that Daniel may feel unhappy or what but seriously I do hope everything wouldnt have any changes . So SORRY ! ): I am just too afraid that things between us may turn out in another way and I am worry that Daniel wold ignore me ! Gosh , I am feeling damnLOW ! I choose nort to meet up with Anson because he wasnt free too and he told me whether want to meet him tomorrow anort and I choose nort to because I DOESNT WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEND and I DOESNT WANT DANIEL NORT TO TRUST ME ! But yet my heart is crying nort because of anyone but just you , DANIEL .
The 5th day Daniel in camp
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Yawn Yawn and Sneeze Sneeze ~~ ! I was really tired yesterday but ended up going bed around 6 plus in the morning . I was watching show and at the same time was having flu that cant make me go sleep uhs . Was using Computer with my Girlfriend Jamie at living room while Sep and Edna was sleeping soundly at the room . Zzzz ! hahas . Doesnt know whats wrong with the Computer kept cant connect to the Internet ! While my computer is okay and den Jamie ones wasnt okay den when Jamie ones is okay den mine is nort okay ! zZZZ ! Finally a period of time both computer manage to work . She used computer until 3 plus den headed to sleep le and as for me I was still using Computer . Some kind of rather was feeling hungry again and so I went to the kitchen to cook some Maggie for my Supper finish eating den headed back to use Computer again ! Sleep until 2 plus in the afternoon , Edna brought Sep and me lunch . Today lunch we eat was Chicken Rice ! Sleep till 5 plus den here I am finally waking up and I think I am going bed sleep again ! I am feeling fucking unwell ! ):
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Daniel texted me again while he is having his free time again today . But SORRY ! I wasnt feeling very well today so kind of tired keep replying your message late . Started too feel BAD for replying his message late ! In the past when I wasnt feel well you would always take good care of me some kind of rather I do hope that you are right here for me to take care of me ! But some kind of rather I think that there is something bothering about Daniel ? He sound kind of MOODY and when I asked him whether is there anything which is bothering him he say nothing is bothering him . Perhaps really nothing have happened maybe is I am thinking too much again . But I do hope that he could share with me if anything had happened . Texted with him alot of things . Car , army and the most ourselves . Everything is just like the past when we are togeter . Daniel , ii myself feel really Happy ! Having you is very good and its just like we go back like the past . Talk things over freely and every memories just came back . Sweet&Loving ! (: I promise Daniel that I will quit smoking but I must start to cut down first after that den can quit smoking . Sometime I would ask myself why do I mind so much about Daniel and why do I listen to him ? I think is because of something which is call LOVE POWER . Satisfied with what we are now and seriously I am looking forward for each day because we can text . Loves&Misses(:
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Daniel texted me again while he is having his free time again today . But SORRY ! I wasnt feeling very well today so kind of tired keep replying your message late . Started too feel BAD for replying his message late ! In the past when I wasnt feel well you would always take good care of me some kind of rather I do hope that you are right here for me to take care of me ! But some kind of rather I think that there is something bothering about Daniel ? He sound kind of MOODY and when I asked him whether is there anything which is bothering him he say nothing is bothering him . Perhaps really nothing have happened maybe is I am thinking too much again . But I do hope that he could share with me if anything had happened . Texted with him alot of things . Car , army and the most ourselves . Everything is just like the past when we are togeter . Daniel , ii myself feel really Happy ! Having you is very good and its just like we go back like the past . Talk things over freely and every memories just came back . Sweet&Loving ! (: I promise Daniel that I will quit smoking but I must start to cut down first after that den can quit smoking . Sometime I would ask myself why do I mind so much about Daniel and why do I listen to him ? I think is because of something which is call LOVE POWER . Satisfied with what we are now and seriously I am looking forward for each day because we can text . Loves&Misses(:
The 4th day Daniel in Camp
Friday, December 11, 2009
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Yawn ~~ Yawn ~~ . Today very very tired because dint gert enough sleep . Meet up with Sep's friends and den ended up cant sleep . Play card game and smoke till the morning den headed to bed and sleep . Today wake up at 12 in the noon to go back home to meet up with Mummy and 2nd Jiejie to go for 1st Jiejie graudation day ! My dearest Jiejie was kind of afriad that we would be late so she keep texting me or call me to ask check where are we ?! We went over to the flower shop to buy her flowers . Headed to take train to Clementie and den Jiejie call me again ! After that reach Clementie den we took cab down to SIM UNIVERSITY . Headed to the washroom and den to granted hall to wait for the ceremony to being . After all those FULLTIME managments student is done next was PART-TIME managments student and Jiejie was in there . Clapped very loud when the announcers called my Jiejie name ! She gert GOLD AWARD and she done us really proud ! Good JOB ! Headed down to have some food and saw Jiejie classmates , Kelly and Peiling ! Took alot of photos but den all was in the Digital Camera !
Time maybe busy with Daniel Staff . But I never forgotten the group of Girlfriend that is always with me . My 5 dearest Girlfriend thanks so much for your everything . Your words , huggies and entertainment . I love you Girlfriends(:
Today texted with Daniel in the afternoon because he is having his free time . Have alot alot to say and den started to be fear that we may have no more topic to say one day . Will we ?! I hope that we wouldnt if nort I will be very upset . I told Daniel that I getting back my result on the 18 dec is there any reward if I do well ?! He asked me what do I want ? The first thing I thought was this " I wanted a date with you . " he replied " Zzzzz ii gort meet you marhs ! . After that I finally know what I want and so I told him that I want to change . I wanted him to be HAPPY , Smile more and talk things out freely . After that we dint text le because I think free time is already over liao . At night we texted again , he told me some of his campmates is kind of funny and seriously from the way he replied me I can feel that althought life is hard inside but he do have fun inside too . As long Daniel is happy and so does July is ! Mood was happy but at the same time was kind of low ! Family Problems makes me trouble and yet Icouldnt find anyone to talk to and so I told him ! Remember when you come out of camp you must lent me your shoulder uhs . Daniel , I know that are times I say things that you doesnt like althought I sound like I am joking but seriously I am nort . I do wish and wants to be your Girlfriend but I know there are things which cant be rush and I know that I need to prove things to you but nort talk without action . Thanks for nort bouncing me out ! I will keep the promises that I have make and I would try my very best nort to break it as you know is 2 years is nort something which is very easy so no matter what I will work hard ! No BETRAY ! Today when you say whether you trust me or nort is still the same but do you know that I do mind the answer you gave alot ? I know that is hard to trust me but I will work hard and thats for sure ! I am Happy each day when you text me althought we dint meet up but it is as if you were with me . Loves&Misses(:
The 3rd day Daniel in Camp
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Yesterday went to bed quite early around 4 plus in the morning . I was kind of tired and so headed bed to slepp early ! Yawn ~~ wake up in the afternoon around 6 plus and den headed home to take my clothes and den went to cig ! When back to Sep's house to shower myself and den the rest of my girlfriend went to prepare themself also . Headed down to meet Sep's friends 3 of them . Raphael , Gary and Junhui . Went down to 2A to have our dinner and den there was group of guys there too . So after eating , I asked Joey whether wan number marhs and den she say anything . Walked off and den went back to the CoffeeShop again to take the guy which wear Orange T-shirt . I dint wanted any guys number because I know that I gort Daniel is enough le . So Sep and me helped her to take 2 number . On our way back , something kind of PISSED ME OFF ! Come On ! I took it just to help my Girlfriend and nort I wanted the number . I never wanted to do anything to betray Daniel even thought he is nort my Boyfriend . I always remember the 2 year promises that I make to him ! I just wanted to make my girlfriend to feel no bored am ii WRONG ?!
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Today we texted again . But he seen to be very busy today . Took quite long to reply me back but nevermind is okays . I know that he is busy and so I doesnt want to disturb him . He told me that life is hard inside and this is making me worry and at the same time I feel heartbroke . He is just like a Prince at home and now he is all alone I guess he is nort used to it . Each day I could only say that Endure and endure . I am useless very USELESS ! I cant help him much and I really wanted but I just doesnt know what to do . Sorry ! Pray hard to God ! Please watch over him in everything he do . I am worry and hope 7 days could pass very fast ! Daniel , I MISS YOU . No matter what I have confident in you that you can do well inside and everything is going to be okay for you . I never wanted to flirt or hong any guys and I hope that you could believe me . I never do anything ! I always remember that 2 years pledge and I mean what I really say so PLEASE TRUST ME ! If I am really flirting around I wouldnt told you that I ask number from those 2 guys . No matter what , please takecare of yourself and dont make me worry for you okays ? July is here waiting for YOU ! Loves&Misses(:
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Today we texted again . But he seen to be very busy today . Took quite long to reply me back but nevermind is okays . I know that he is busy and so I doesnt want to disturb him . He told me that life is hard inside and this is making me worry and at the same time I feel heartbroke . He is just like a Prince at home and now he is all alone I guess he is nort used to it . Each day I could only say that Endure and endure . I am useless very USELESS ! I cant help him much and I really wanted but I just doesnt know what to do . Sorry ! Pray hard to God ! Please watch over him in everything he do . I am worry and hope 7 days could pass very fast ! Daniel , I MISS YOU . No matter what I have confident in you that you can do well inside and everything is going to be okay for you . I never wanted to flirt or hong any guys and I hope that you could believe me . I never do anything ! I always remember that 2 years pledge and I mean what I really say so PLEASE TRUST ME ! If I am really flirting around I wouldnt told you that I ask number from those 2 guys . No matter what , please takecare of yourself and dont make me worry for you okays ? July is here waiting for YOU ! Loves&Misses(:
The 2nd day Daniel in Camp
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Today went bed quite late around 10 plus in the morning den I sleep . Yesterday night was busy watching show with Sep , Jamie , Edna , Charles and Weekian we guys watched alot of show . I have alot of laughter . ket laughing and laughing with Jamie and den KENA SCOLDING from SEP ! ('_') LOLS . I just doesnt know whats wrong with myself last night but I only know that there is alot of things which is bothering me and I am nort HAPPY ! Have a small quareel with Charles but everything is okay le , I am Sorry I dint mean it . Watched a Japan Cartoon Show , 1 MissedCall and also a Vampire show ! LMAO ! We are simply too HIGH to gert to bed and headed down to buy breakfast and eat . Headed back home and watch show again but this time round I am getting tired so ended up falling asleep le . Suddenly , Daniel messgae me because he has his free time le but I fallen asleep so late reply !! I am fucking MAD at myself ! STUPID JULY !!! Waited for so LONG and ended up when he message me I fallen alseep ! Sleep until 5 plus wake up to help Jiejie to check what time the clinic open and den headed down with Sep to meet Jiejie and pei her see doctor . Just finish eating and done with my smoking le ! Going shower later and at the same time going to text Daniel le .
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Posting back later because Daniel going text me later on bahs . Yeah ! Finally , waited until his message le uhs ! I am HAPPY(: . Texted him althought we dint really talk alot alot but at least is better den yesterday because we have message more . Hope that everything wouldnt change between Daniel and me . Heard that everything is doing okay for him , I am glad but no matter what hope that he wouldnt fall ill . I can feel that Daniel is very Happy because 8 more days he is coming out le and so do I ! July can finally see him for 8 more days le ! (: . So lets count down ! I am content what we are now, I doesnt ask for more because at least we are good and he is doing great ! Everything had ended up like this is all my fault so I am going to work hard ! No mater what , DANIEL TAN I MISS YOU ! Loves&Misses(:
I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID ! I AM STUPID I AM STUPID I AM STUPID !
Posting back later because Daniel going text me later on bahs . Yeah ! Finally , waited until his message le uhs ! I am HAPPY(: . Texted him althought we dint really talk alot alot but at least is better den yesterday because we have message more . Hope that everything wouldnt change between Daniel and me . Heard that everything is doing okay for him , I am glad but no matter what hope that he wouldnt fall ill . I can feel that Daniel is very Happy because 8 more days he is coming out le and so do I ! July can finally see him for 8 more days le ! (: . So lets count down ! I am content what we are now, I doesnt ask for more because at least we are good and he is doing great ! Everything had ended up like this is all my fault so I am going to work hard ! No mater what , DANIEL TAN I MISS YOU ! Loves&Misses(:
The 1st day Daniel in Camp
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
YAWN !! ~~ I am finally awake now ! Currently now is around 4 plus went to bed just now in the morning around 9 plus and here I am awake again . Waited for so many hours to pass 6am in the morning , seriously I was really tired . But ended up everything is worth waiting because I manage to hear Daniel's voice and his laughter too . Started to realise that I am changing to be a very COWARD person , I wasnt like this in the past perhaps I would only be like this to Daniel bahs if I am nort wrong . Talking on phone just now with him was kind of cold there are moment that we are really keeping quiet and so I decided that we should hangup the CALL . Althought , I really doesnt wish to hangup but den nevermind I doesnt want him to be uncomfortable . Texted him and told him things I wants to say and so on . Today I did alot of things . This is how I spend my day today . I wake up and den I have my dinner with my girlfriend . After eating , I went to smoke and den headed back home to gert my belongings . Headed to convience store to buy Cat food and after that headed back to Sep's house to feed the cat and after that shower . Today wash Daniel's jacket le . At night couldnt sleep and so I went down to have a stroll with my girlfriend . Headed to playground and den I saw alot of STAR ! Sitted down there awhile and den headed back to Sep's house again .
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Today is Daniel going in Camp the 1 DAY . I pray to GOD and wish that everything is doing fine for him and everything he does is going to be smooth . Hope that he could be use to the enviorment . Till now , I still havent receive his message and seriously I am nort so happy ! Yeah , finally Daniel reply me my message le ! HAPPY ! Althought we just texted 2 but is better den nothing . I wanted to tell him alot of things de , Daniel , I am nort in a good mood today I am troubling alot alot of things ! But when I heard that he say that life inside wasnt very good I started to worry for him and I doesnt want him to worry about me . I am troubling alot of things and seriously , I really wish that you could teach me what to do ! I needed you alot but at the same time I really doesnt want to trouble you . No matter , endure the hardship everthing is going to be ok and I believe you can make it ! Loves&Misses(:
I MISS DANIEL !
Monday, December 7, 2009
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Counting down to 10 days and he is BACK ! Currently cant sleep because later going talk to DANIEL ! I am so TIRED ! But I am NORT going to SLEEP !! Gosh , left 1 hour plus and I can go sleep le ! I MISSDANIEL!
Daniel is going in CAMP in around 9 more hours time . Seriously , I really wanted to send you off to the camp place but I never have the courage to say that I wanted to send you . So I am going to call you later on !! I have alot of things that I wanted to tell you . But first I wanted to tell you this Please takecare of yourself and drink plenty of water . I am here waiting for your message each day , here waiting for your each bookout and here waiting for you to complete your NationalService . I doesnt know whether I really cant anort but I would try my very best becaue I really want to be with you . 2 years is nort a joking matter no matter what answer you give me at last , I would never regret for waiting for you . Its always been you who giving in so much and no matter how much I make you angry . So now I shall be the ONE who make up things to you .
No matter what , I know I am going to CRY for sure ! But at the same time I know that you will would never dont reply my text . I would wait for each day . Here I am challenging my 2 years ! Wish me GOODLUCK !
I MISS DANIEL I MISS DAMIEL I MISS DANIEL I MSS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANMIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DNIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MSS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL I MISS DANIEL !
The pledge of love for Daniel Tan
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Never gert shocked when you see this photo because I am going to make things
clearly over here . I am going to woo back Daniel and I am going to wait for him for 2 years ! I doesnt know whether I can anort and I doesnt care whether I can or cannot but I am going to try my very very BEST ! I know that I cant gave you any trust right now but I will try my very best to let you to have back those trust in me again . I know that I did alot of things that destroy all the trust you gave me , I did alot of things that hurt you and I never been a good girlfriend when I am with you . Took you for granted , throwing tempers , attitude and always giving you faces . I know for this passing months I have change to another girl but I am going to change myself back . You never wanted me to change because of you but is YOU that I wanted to change and work hard for . Everybody makes mistakes and I know my mistakes is nort easily to be forgiven but Daniel never sentence me before giving me a chance of changing . Dont bounces me OUT ! As I say I never want to press you or make you stress but sometimes I really want to know whats on your mind . Thanks for telling me whats on your mind and I would try my very best to keep the PLEDGE OF THE LOVE ! . Dont ignore me or treat me cold . Promise ?
Guys , I need alot of help !
Seriously , I am very tired right now . The eyes of mine is really going to close because I have a cry . Lets nort talk about this first . Yesterday something bad happened to edna and being her girlfriends we accompany her by making highpyeractivity . Accompany play and drink . Seriously , I am kind of drunk and so ii went to bed early . Wake up quite early to gert Daniel's things done and so I am goig out to meet my sister for our shopping . When down to Pasir Ris to buy Daniel' hand braclet and den headed to Bugis to have lunch . After lunch , we started to shop le . Jiejie , she brought me a new m)phosis shoe and so she brought a Charles&Keith shoe for her grauation day the shoe is really pretty . Continue our shopping at Bugis Street ! Jiejie today she brought alot of things !! OMG !! Today realised that Jiejie was so kind of rather nort happy ! Sayang my BELOVED JIEJIE !
After that headed back to Bugis Junction the Mos Burger to have a drink and after that went back home . Thanks jiejie for bringing me out today and I enjoyed alot . I loveyou ! Went to meet Sep dey all once come back and den headed down to Bukit Panjang to meet Daniel . Thanks Girls for the accompany .
I just wanted to tell you this , I LOVEYOU
Friday, December 4, 2009
I know people will be saying that I am very Hong , Flirt and even playing people feelings but guys I have no comment about it . I wanted to say was I doesnt want to play people's feeling because I know the feeling is nort very good . I know I have hurt alot of people but seriously I dint mean it and all I could say was I am Sorry ! I know a Sorry couldnt mend much but I only can say that I am Sorry . Having so much relationship with so many guys , I have learn alot alot of things . Dont gert on a relationship with someone which you just know and never take in those sweet-talks . Getting in so much with so much guys and I thought that I could forgert him but never did I . I dint mean to hurt you all . So till now I doesnt want any boyfriend because finally I know wha I really want . I never wanted to press you , annoy you or making you uncomfortable . All I wanted was to be a friend of yours who can talk to you happily and you could always open your heart freely to talk with me . After so many months , I started to realise I love you more and more . Seriously , I really wants and hope that you could patch with me but I wanted your forgiveness . I did something which I broke your heart and I regretted it alot alot . Never wanted things to turn out like this , I am an attention seeker and so I do anything to just gert your attention . I doesnt wish you to PITY ME because having you to pity me is worse then everything just like dying . Gert it ?! I miss your SMILE ! (:
Each tears I shed down for you is worth it , giving up the whole forest because of one tree is worth it . After each time you hurt me and I still wants to gert back to you because I know is worth it . Making so much effort and gert rejected by you each time yet I am still wiling to work hard because I think is worth it . Everything that is YOU and I do it willingily because its YOU and the person who I want , I know is worth it . No pressing ! Thats what , I promise you ! (:
